Sophia of Silicon Valley by Anna Yen

Author:Anna Yen
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: HarperCollins
Published: 2018-04-10T04:00:00+00:00

I cried unabashedly for two weeks. Straight. At work, at home, in restaurants. With anyone that would listen. My heart was filled with grief, pure grief, and I couldn’t believe how badly I hurt. I couldn’t sleep, eat, or drink, and my blood sugar levels were all over the map. I felt all alone even though my parents were on the other side of the house; I knew I couldn’t talk to them. They were certainly not disappointed at Daniel’s absence and didn’t understand why I was. It was almost one o’clock in the morning when I rang Kate.

“I wasted all that time. Almost two years! I thought he loved me,” I sobbed.

My best friend whispered ever so quietly into the phone, “Hang on. Let me go into the other room so I don’t wake up Mark.” Then, seconds later, in a more audible tone, she said, “Oh, Sophia, I’m so sorry you’re going through this. You just have to dive through it. Just take a deep breath and jump.”

“I’m trying. I really am,” I said. I knew I’d have to pull it together soon because even I was tired of hearing myself talk about the demise of my relationship with Daniel.

“You just weren’t ready to say goodbye, so you’re upset that he was the one to say it,” Kate reassured me. “But you would have done it when you were ready. I know you would have.”

That all made sense, but it didn’t help at all. The worst part was that I couldn’t pinpoint why I was so devastated. I bought a journal to write down my thoughts: Dear Daniel letters that told him how much I missed him, simple statements like I hate you, and pages and pages of all the things I might have done to drive away my boyfriend.

If it really was because of my career, will all Prince Charmings have the same view? Can’t I be a great girlfriend and have a career?

The following week, whether it was because of the lack of sleep or the bad breakup diet I’d adopted, my stomach began to ache.

“What’s wrong with you?” Scott asked one morning as he and Jonathan passed me in the hallway outside our offices.

“What do you mean?”

“You’re all hunched over. And your eyes—they’re all puffy.”

“Daniel broke up with me.” My eyes began to tear.

“Oh, Jesus,” Scott said, rolling his eyes.

“Look! I’m allowed to be upset. And if you don’t like it, then fire me!” I said, knowing he wouldn’t.

“Don’t mind him, Sophia. You are always welcome to express your emotions here,” Jonathan said as he gave me a hug. “The world would be a better place if everyone were more sensitive.”

Scott was less sympathetic. “I told you,” he snapped. “I told you I didn’t like that guy. You’re partly to blame, though. You are putting out the wrong energy, Sophia. If you don’t reflect on that, you will continue to attract the wrong people.”

I furrowed my brow. At least being angry at Scott was one way to make my tears stop.

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